you were the confidence in my voice
the balance in my dance
you were my favorite pair of jeans
the shade of color my eyes needed
you were the shoes that fit just right
the keeper of my secrets
you were the compliment to my faults
the argument of my debate
you were the words I never had to say
the binding that held me together
I pass you on the street
hear you call my name
see you in a crowded room
feel you next to me
my weary mind wanders and my brave heart breaks
when I close my eyes and can't picture your face

Last night was tough. Watching the voice by myself was hard, considering you watched it with me last week. This morning I woke up and started working, and then I had probably the worst idea ever, which was watching the video from the funeral the slideshow of all the pictures. It was too soon to do that I laughed a little and cried a lot, but I can honestly say that today was better than yesterday I've been out to mom and dads every day to check on Gary and the kids and to my surprise, they are all doing well and hanging in there like champs! We are going to make it, so don't worry about us. I love you, and I know I'll see you again someday.​

My sister passed away 6 days ago but the last 6 days have felt like an eternity. Yesterday was the funeral. The Pastor, David Rice was amazing. He met with our family and close friends Sunday to listen to our stories of her and for someone who never actually got to meet my sister you would have never known it the way he talked about her. He shared our memories and really did an outstanding job of keeping it light, making it possible to celebrate her life between all of the tears. 
At the graveside my dad and my nephew got out their guitars and serenaded my sister one last time with the song "Cover you in kisses" by John Michael Montgomery and the chorus goes like this:
I'd cover you in kisses
Hold you in my arms
That's all that I can think of
Every minute we're apart
Darlin' I've been livin'
For the moment that we touch
So I can cover you in kisses
And wrap you in my love


My sister and I had a unique relationship, she was 11 when I was born so more often than not she stood in as my second mom. I love her unconditionally and I will miss her like crazy but I know that I will see her again someday and I have one hell of a guardian angel watching over me.